happy to hv "some" decision

Eeermm.. still feel very complicated. Still think lotsa things. My surface sure still happy happy de la... this is normal. No one actually able to know when i m happy, when i m frustrated, when i m defeated. Some will know, erm, some of my coursemates, i m surprised he and she knew my pattern, sometimes when someone unlucky, they will see my true pattern la (both he and she knows because of FYP). The decision is hard to make. I finally know where my heart most most most likely want to heading to... I could say that both sides i also like, if someone allow me to have more than 24 hours per day, both i also choose. Greedy. This is closed case dy. No more arguement within my mind.



Kim... a person that i worried our friendship will just end like that. Hopefully i will join her there. Then worry becomes less liao lo. At least can eat lunch together. Can always sms her "i want cry liao making mistake today", "i want cry liao later presentation".... Different department? Same department? haha~ still dunno. I really appreciate for her presence in my life. I can share whatever things, she can tell whatever she know, most important is.. we recently often "cry" here "cry" there... haha~ Just feel "shuang"/"song" when saw her kena bully by sheling... haha~ actually i also kena bully one. But we three are happy together ^^ but dunno how to bring her into the "PORK free" restaurant leh... HAHAHAHAHA~


Sheling... i believe that we will just happy happy last for very long time, with Kim... I hope she found her way too... I know she still not sure about her future plan, she very keen to work, but i feel that she dun want just work like that, or else, she already go look for job liao lo.


Yen... this is very weird to write about her at here. Without this friend, my life will just a straight line, haha~ with her, my life has to go up and down dy. She's also one of my motivator. But dunno which role she's playing, haha~ I dunno why i very obey what she ordered me to do one... WEIRDO me...


I dunno whether "ah gong" noticed that i no longer calling him ah gong. Erm... feel weird + happy no more + distance between our friendship. It seems just last for a very short period [i know i know this is not the end]...
I m really sensitive one, i feel that jarak kian jauh, as time goes by, no more talk, as year goes by, i already forget everything [that's wat i told him b4]. When i know he's not going to come back here, sure sad de lo. Now feel ok liao la. When someone just suddenly come in my world, then have to left, i will have many "??????"(question marks). So, sometimes i rela said, "get out of my way, dun complicate my life".. Haha~ this is hurt, i won't tell him this de... Eih, me also hurt de lo, okay [u know what is "cake sam", just end like that.. ] Becoz i experienced b4, those very good very close friend, my secondary school friends, always chit chat one, end out to become "closed" friend/ "no more" friend. Most probably is the distance problem, path different. I really hate this kind of friendship. That's why i hate HoCW. He makes me take the step to this stage one. This is his case.

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I can foresee... haha~ i dun believe the "forever friendship" term...

Haha~ dunno how's he react after seeing this blog...
Erm, however, i m happy to have just a nice friend of him~ who always listen and share.


I think that, beside the word "gambate", "promise" also a very heavy word to me. Never promise to me when something cannot become a promised (dun forget abt KK trip & Australia trip [apple]... )