My first day in Lab

Today, i finally showed up at Pathlab, histopath department. I turned out to be very quite so they will talk more. Its just naturally occured. Cuz scary mah, everything also dunno. Got idea, but when "Lok Sau Lok Geok" doing, i am curious if i can handle. Heuzz... Never trained b4, just briefly taught in school by dr Kim, and during the lab i just fished the sections only loh..

I got two sifu, mr Leong (Boss) and Ramli. And the big Boss, Dr Thane. Me and Ramli talk more, cuz he's nice to show me anything pop up in his mind, come come i show u the place. For sure he's better in guiding me. May be i am scare of or got gap between me and my boss. But may be after some times we wil get closer.. Who knows. Last time training i m closer with my boss. My big boss writing, really torture me, i even can't recognize the 1st alphabet of some words. Why doctor must write like that?

Tomorrow scary lo. I wil start doing tissue embedding, making tissue block, those wax wax thing, those sectioning stuff, may be staining, but not grossing. Although i feel ok when seeing those things (polyp, node, tumor), ask me to cut them so soon, i dun think so. I m feeling bad when get to know that that cauliflower tumor was fr a 12years old girl. Such a huge mass grew in her body..

Scare actually, cuz this is not just training, on job training. If u r lembik, what wil other thinking of u? Stress... Although they r nice today, can't promise they can stand of me the next day.
One more thing, i like the job actually. But if i quit halfway, they train me so hard, then i could be killed for being so selfish. Haizz...

Now in my nose full of one smell, xylene Mix alcohol.