I keep asking... Is it just a wrong dialing number? Or really its a call from my very best friend? Or it is his girlfriend calling me? (<30% chance) [both also very best friends of mine] Haha! I also dunno why i manage to recognize the number (i didnt save his cell number since i changed my phone)... its kinda weird because i can't memorize or bear in mind the cell number of my friends at current stage (mostly UTAR lah).... But during last stage, i can memo- most of them...
I m acting weird for not answering by just watching the number, feel the vibration... I don't dare to answer.... I know even I had answered it, i also dunno how to response, what to say, how to speak.... tak tau~~~ so far, there are only three numbers i won't answer. Recently, the chances I answer calls and call ppl are more than I sms ppl... whoever call me i will just pick it up doubtless =) Izzit I dunno how to face old friend? Haha! I am angry or blaming him for not looking for me for a very long time? Not really loh.... [actually i do try to stay connected with him, i do try my best, but both friends are responsible for that lo, kita berdua dua juga kena berusaha] This sudden call did mask me for few days... now ok already loh... since he is not calling back. May be just he is just dialling a wrong number... ^^ i quite in need of a friend like him [similar to the second version of khuenfatt], but this depends alot on fate... CHILLEX~ 相信我已经不大会跟人相处~ 更难交上什么知己，我太依赖人了^^
(i believe that i start to face difficulty in maintaining a normal friend relationship, even difficult in finding some close friends, not because my friends in current stage not close enough, just because i m totally over depended on friends, make me feel that they cant fulfil my satisfaction, i m tooo GREEDY... hahaha!!! They are close, but a wall is always appeared btween me and my friends, this is what i feel) Why there is a wall? Actually i think that the FIREwall is setting up by me, myself.... XD XD XD!! I said i will try i will try i will try... but i dun think i m trying my best... old friends were left, scar still stayed. But I will try to solve lah. Promise. Promise to forgive and forget, "forgive" is to forgive my own self, "forget" is to forget those things that masked me...
From now on, I will try to kepoh, ba gua, chit chat nonstop.... wakakka!!
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