I got a bad news just now. One of my junior passed away because of road accident. I don't dare to ask for details. Actually i already know from my friend's blog yesterday. I think i just can't believe it. Today, I get confirm from my another "grandpa" before twelve. My another best friend (my junior) cried and feel pain to lose her friend. The moment i know about this, i just pretend dunno, dun want think if it is true, dun believe if it is really happen. The friend is a nice guy, and feel comfortable during practise with him in 华乐团. My emo just mixed up. Dunno what with me now. Sad, complicated, worry, scare... When something happen, i will think many many weird matters. When everything comes together, just mix up and accumulate, i might 崩溃 (collapse), can't control of my emo, feeling n rational thinking anymore. What to do? Just can cry? I m enough for all those things and problems already. Pls show me the right way.. Dun u plan? Dun u think? Dun u listen ur heart?... But This is tortured u know, cuz i can't think of anything now. KELIRU~
Lastly, i hope he can let go, go well n rest in peace, friend.
I think i shud relax n calm down now. Best thing of me is that, i wil always find a way to solve, and know how to make myself feel better. Not directly to the problem, but indirectly, how to take care of myself.
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I remember when i was in Form 4, my respected leader in PBSM drown while swimming in a swimming pool and admist of other PBSM members tat were shocked. The whole contingent of PBSM is down and in tears. Sooner i slowly able to cope with his death and everyone back to normal life but he is still in our memories. ^ ^
Hope u feel better ya. =)
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